The One That Got Away

Why am I so blind
I should have saw the signs.
The sign of affection towards my direction
This is surely the worst in my collection of screw ups
Why can't I grow up...

She was my best friend
Up until the end.
Interest was what she sent
Another direction I went.
Big mistake...

She asked me if I still liked my ex
I said yes
and that was the end of it.
When I showed interest
she no longer did.

For years I placed my bid
but the auction closed
so tears I shed.

She is with someone else
And I am left by myself...
She is taken
But not by a boy
Oh Joy...
She's with a lady now

I didn't know why and how
But all I can say is wow.
I didn't want to know if it's real or not
I really liked her a lot
She was the one that got...
away...

Walk like a gentlemen.

Damn my lower body hurts sooo bad. Soccer this year could be the death of me, I swear. Everyday is mostly running in circles. I get so tired that I'm not able to bring my full potential when we actually do something with the ball. Yesterday was the worst. It was the first two laps of the warm down and my feet start to tight up. I was so confused. Like how the hell am I already tightning up? Questions run through my mind while I'm running the feild. Questions like: Did I eat too much? Did I tie my shoes too tight? Did I get enough sleep? Who was the girl from "I Love you Man"?. Then when I took off my shoe and layers of socks there was a huge lump. I asked around "What the F*** is this shit?" Taylor had no idea. I had no idea. And the coaches didn't know. I wanted to go home soo bad but I realized what it was. I put to many layers of socks that my feet can't breath. So I took out the inner layer and put on the outter. I went out there and played through the whole practice. I still wanted to kill myself but at least I got to show what I had in me. After that, it was Kill Bill movie fest lol. I fell in love with Quinten Tarintino's movies. I love'em. If he ever shows up one day in my life I am gonna geek out sooo hard lol.

woah hi!

Hi!
Remember me yall? lol. Wow lots of stuff happened the past few months. But the main thing was the death of a king. Michael Jackson died on June 25, 2009. Before the news broke of the death there was an announcement that he would have a comeback tour in London called "This is it" he said he would perform the songs the people want to hear. The Michael Jackson collection. It was gonna be directed by the guy who directed High School Musical and other acts like the Jonas Brothers and Miley Cyrus. His trainer was Lou Ferrigno (the hulk), and his docters were crap... The rumored cause of death was an overdose of a drug that starts with an M.
Before word went out of his death there was news reports of him being rushed to UCLA hospital. I figured he was ok then started playing baseball on the PS3. Thirty minutes later Nick Sourbis texts me and tells me the news. I didn't believe it until I went on TMZ and saw Michael Jackson dead at 50. I froze for a full minute then ultimately teared. I don't remember the last time I cried before that moment but I couldn't hold it. It was like a part of me died. I quickley went to facebook and saw everyones status saying R.I.P. MJ or Yay he's dead (I hated that). When I turned on the T.v. it was all Michael all the time. The Apollo Theatre had a sign on the Marquee that said "In Memory of Michael Jackson: A true apollo legend" 1958-2009." People started crowding the theatre and started singing and dancing to his Iconic songs. I wanted to take a bus to harlem and go there to join the gathering but I had no money. All I can do then was to cry and listen to the Thriller album, Jackson 5 greatest hits, and Michaels first solo single "Ben." Ben is probably my personal favorite. It kinda described me and deeply touched me when I felt alone. I wanna rock with you is my second favorite. It made me dance and got me to fall in love with music more specifically R&B. It turned me on to different R&B acts like Usher, Luther Vandross, Stevie Wonder, etc.
Back when I was 11 years old. My dad used to play the Jackson 5 Greatest hits. I was hooked automatically. I'll be there, ABC, etc. My dad used to talk about how amazing this little boy from Gary, Indiana was. He tried to explain to me that MJ was not always weird. I believed him... Anyways yeah... (Tears) I'll continue tomorrow and I want to do a medley of his songs.

Bamboozle, Kazoozles, and Paquiaoozle

Bamboozle May 2nd 2009

Best day ever (so far)

The Boys Like Girls set was crazy, insane, and unreal.  Two Mosh Pits, pushing, Shoving, Spooning, Crowd Surfing. All Time Low was amazing, Forever the Sickest Kids was awesome, We the Kings was my favorite.  Demi Lovato came in randomly though during Secret Valentine.  Journey was the special guest.  Awesome. I got a hug from the beautiful Cassadee. (Lead singer of Hey Monday)

Not FML, but LML (Love my life)

Kazoozles

They were free at Bamboozle.  It tasted so good.  It was crack in a some kind of penis looking candy. (lol)

Paquiaoozle

Two Rounds knock out

Hatton got killed.

Next Victim: Floydd Mayweather JR or Juan Marquez 

A Ship Wreck In The Sand

Today was an awesome and disappointing day.  Awesome was hooters, got a new Silverstein album, and I saw Crank 2.  Disappointing was when I saw Observe and Report first.  Seth Rogen was so unfunny.  Very uncharacteristic of him because he is always funny no matter what he does.  When he does an animated movie or a kids show he is always funny.  In this he was just acting completely stupid.  I didn't get it.  The worst part of it was the chase scene where Seth tries to arrest the mall flasher.  Through out the whole chase the flashers peanut sized dick was flapping all over.  I wanted to effin puke.  Movie number two was Crank 2.  It was really good kinda.  I enjoyed it.  Before I entered the movie there was a band of little kids (half my age) walked in.  I was like who the hell are the parents?  There is so much adult content in this movie. I was really confused. Anyways it was a roller coaster day.  But great way to start this week off.  Have a nice day :D

-Amadeo

Neverland

So many bills to pay
they've been due since may (it's now july)
Is there anyway for me to bail me out

So much doubt in my heart
I'm falling apart
and I can't start... crying
Times like these makes you feel like dying

I want to fly away
to somewhere where nothing turns to gold
A place where people live and never grow old

I need an escape
an escape from this depression
good vibrations and sweet sensations
a different brand... a place I can stand...
Let's go to Neverland...

Suessical

Yeah it's over... Damn... I got nothing to do now lol.

mmm Burgers

Wow I loved this weekend. I finally got my TV. 40 inch, 1080 p, Sony Bravia. It's Heaven! OMG I Love It. I would take a picture of it but I'm a little lazy. Friday was cool cause I went to the best burger places in New York City. The place is called "Burger Joint" and it's burger heaven. I heard about it when "The Lonely Island" guested LXTV First Look. They weren't kidding when they said that it's a small place. The restaurant is the size of a motel room. All over the walls though are many celebs that visited. Ashton Kutcher took half a wall LOL. Anyways the Burgers are really good. You should check it out next time your in the city. Unfortunatly it's not as good as In N Out Burger... OMG. *drools*

Happy Birthday Peyton Manning lol

This made my whole day including all the greetings I got. Thank you guys and I love yall.

11:11

On Tuesday... All of you I bet won't even notice (or care) that it will be my birthday. I will not mention it at. I won't acknowledge it or even hint at it. I just want to see who says it first. LOL!

Three Words

Screw you Oprah.
You can give Charice Pompenco a freacking recording contract?
What about other struggling artist in America?
REMEMBER
The place you live in?!
The Place that loves you?!
The Place that you pretty much own???
Jesus.
Maybe if I do the same shit I can get my own recording contract.
Charice is really talented but... I know other acts that are much more talented than her.
I'm gonna post a vid of me singing and I better get my own effing contract!
*I say shoulders lol. So yeah I want my Recording contract now. And I kinda suck too lol.
-Matt Bangsil Mateo Amadeo Briones

La Madrasta

The greatest Mexican telonovela ever lol

Lo Que Soy

Demi Lovato is a Disney Star, but she is pretty cute and an awesome voice. This is the spanish version of "This is me" from Camp Rock. The english version is a little more exciting but this version is better in my eyes. Enjoy!

Grrr...

In this dark night
I thought about the last time you talked to me
saying you don't wanna be with me anymore
yet I was still turned on...
when you slammed my door...

Shit I'm getting rusty...
Today was a very fattening day ending with Watchmen.
All I can say about the movie is...
BIG BLUE PENIS...

Oh yes...

Tell Everybody That You Know

Today was a very cold day. It snowed last night and we got another free day. Yay! In the morning I tried to watch "West Side Story and couldn't get into it after that song with Tony and Maria. Then I stopped and went out to take pictures for that project. Dante came along and went to Dunkin' Donuts and talked about men stuff lol. When I got home I was watching the Kanye West Story Tellers episode. He was great dude. The best performance in my mind. After that I saw this.

Why the hell isn't this guy in the NBA??
He dunked the ball from the free throw line!! And you put him in the minor leagues?
REALLY? Is the economy that bad?

Poem of an Angry "Whipped" Man

I took the picture off my shelf
Telling myself that its her fault
and nobody else
why did you put my mind though this hell
and my heart into this jail
can't even fuckin' post bail
The soft snow turns to hard hail

So why did you even bother
and why did you even stay
I don't know why you turned my life around...
in the worst way...

Anyways
I'm gonna say what is on my mind
You can go to hell and be buried with your lies
Watch my anger on the rise
hope you see an early demise

I know that we're young
but what you did was cold
You need to stop
fuckin' for gold
and going down on guys that are old

I also know
you screwed other guys on the side
when I heard the news I almost nearly cried
A part of me died
and my mind shot
I wonder what you'll say when you get caught...

Keep the light on when I'm gone...

I fell back in love with pop music... yeah I can't give up old habits... N*SYNC... I missed you lmao.
Lady Gaga became my new ear and eye candy and David Cook's album isn't bad. Today me and Rian went around town to take pictures for basic photo. I made him pose next to a fire hydrant so it looks like he is pissing on the hydrant like a dog. Lmao yeah I'm so gettin' A+ or I'm gonna get a super F. Anyway song of my day is Light On by David Cook.

All Time Low

I'm having a very Bipolar week
A few days ago I was the happiest dude on Earth.
Then I came back down to earth and became a total vegetable.
Depression is like that annoying person that comes to every party and screws up the whole party for you. I haven't been talking lately either. I feel like a mime too. Damn I'm such a sad person lol.
I guess its because of the music I've been listening too. I guess soul, motown, R&B, jazz, and big band stuff gets me down. I don't know...
Anyways the song of my day is this... enjoy... bitches

Oh, I just wish someone would try to hurt you so I could kill them for you. -Frank Sinatra

Bored... forever...

Valentines Day Castaway

Yeah, I'm gonna be alone this Valentines Day... no biggy. It's All Star Weekend anyway... yeah that still sucks. This is the "holiday" I truly hate with an iron fist. It pisses me off. Love everywhere, just not towards me... I'm gonna wear a butt cover so cupid won't shoot me in the ass with his/her love arrows...

2 weeks in...

Yay. Milestone indeed. But that wouldn't really brighten my day... A-Rod admitted that he used Steroids. It feels like my hero just died but not really. I'm sooo disgusted in him. I thought... we all (Yankee fans) thought he was clean... Effin Jose Conseco was fricken right. I hate that snitch...
Anyways yeah it crushes me...

I don't wanna be your favorite enemy.

I hate porn and love now. Well actually its a love hate thing. Lol I love love and I hate love. Weird. Yeah with this cold turkey thing and my weak minded heart, I haven't been the same. Back to the time when I pretty much lost my mind and got super D worded. I'm asking random people to shoot me, I cant concentrate in class because well here's an acronym. A.D.I.D.A.S. I can't even write The Adventures of Toby and Shy with out getting distracted and lose the creative juices that was running in my head. Anyway back to my love problem. I have a huge problem with love. I look at people in the school halls, the streets, movie theaters, hospitals, bathrooms, the park, the library, the laundramats, the church, the bank, Barnes N Nobles, The Olive Garden, Hot Topic, Cold Stone, Hollister, Applebees, Bone Fish, FYE, Best Buy, Disney Parks, Wendy's, and finally family parties. Yeah its really bad... Only time would tell.

My goal for the next 4 and a half weeks

I have gone cold turkey... yeah I know ladies ew. But it feels like its something I have to do. Its gonna be like 40 days and 40 nights but for... you know... squeezing the tube... Yeah.
Here's a trailer of 40 days and 40 nights just in case you have no idea what the hell I'm talking about. So far I am 1 week in. 4 1/2 more weeks to go...

Yeah. Lupe holes to make me... arrive is an "oral exam" or "home plate" but that is pretty unlikely.
- Mateo Amadeo Briones

Random story I just pulled outta my butt

It was a really rainy day on this special day. A day so special it can change Toby's life forever. It was the day he pops the big question to the girl from across the street, Shy. Toby was a quiet young man that saw life as too short and unpredictable. Shy was the total opposite. Though Toby didn't see Shy that much he knew that she was the one. The only communication between the two was every morning at the bus stop when she says, "hi", to him.
Toby responds, "hey", and looks down at his Timberlands that makes himself seem taller.
Yup that was it... Anyways yeah it was a special day for this 5 foot 8 Blockbuster clerk that dropped out of college to pursue music with his hard rock band, The Devils of Sodom. After two years of failed gigs and the lead singers death put a screaching holt to that dream. Shy was an aspiring actress and a part time model. She works at a small Mexican bodega Uptown. She is also smart and quite wild and parties ever other night. Toby's social life isn't much. Hangs out with friends around town and steals playboys from the gas station. Anyways back to the day. Shy was waiting for the bus to the city. Bus number 5 always. Toby walks in looking sharper than usual wearing a v-neck t-shirt, brand new nikes, and jeans that showed the V. Like the Ambercrombie male models. He briskly walks to Shy's side and gives a hesitant "hi." Shy doesn't answer so Toby asks again, just a lot louder. This finally got her attention. She quickly removes the headphones from her ears and gave a quick "hey." Then put her ear phones back in. Toby then clears his throat and asks "Lovely Weather were having."
Shy looks at him with a puzzled stare noticing that it was raining. She gives a slight grin and looks away. Her bus then arrived and climbed on. She turned around and waved goodbye to Toby. Toby failed but gained a small victory that day. He finally said more than 1 word to Shy. All day at work all he can think of is next time... To be continued...

It's saturday

And I'm stuck here studying. Yippee... This totally bites. I kind of want to shoot my self right now but I am without a pistol. So the closest thing to death is either go to sleep or watch LOST...

i'm singing

right now.


danielle says hi though.

[:

Omg made my day so hard LMAO!

President Bush's Greatest Moment...

Inspiring.

Day Off...

Is over! DAMMIT! It felt like Saturday today but now I have to go back to school. OI... WTF! Hopefully the snow will give us a delayed opening or maybe... just maybe a day off... again. YAY.

My other hero...

His Rap was wack but I just wanted to be just like him. Lmao!
SWING IT SWING IT! COME ON COME ON! FEEL IT FEEL IT!

2+2!!!! 2+2!!!

I hate lazy Saturdays with nothing to do. I had it all planned too with 2 back ups. And they all failed!!! First thing was to go to a concert with Andrew. It was a concert for Big Break. Pretty much a battle of the bands for a set spot at The Bamboozle 2009. And Andrews Cousin was in the concert with his band "The Skyscrapers" I think... So when that failed I could have went to Nicks house to do a project, but since it snowed, that was moved to tomorrow. And finally I wanted to see my dad for the day and celebrate his Birthday but of course... It effin snowed. So he went to The Borgata with out me. Crappy day. I wanted to write something but my 2 month writers block is killing me!!! God!!! And to say I want to be a writer for a living... What would Kevin Smith do?

Bitter sweet.... Your gonna be the death of me... I dont want you but I need you... I hate you and love you at the very same time...

If your wondering "Why the damn title is so long?" It's cause I like it and if you dont eat it! Eat a pair of freshly worn basked in the sun jock straps... Im sorry if I'm being mean but I'm a little pissed. Stupid school is just a day away and starts another 6 weeks of hell. Yeah, I have another week off in February. yay! But there is an upside. The play practice is probably this week or next week. Awesome. Can't wait to get back on that stage.

One Pro and Con on Skinny Jeans

Pro: It brings out my sweet ass :D

Con: It Brings out my Cock... :(