I Promise...

The worst day was my best day
today was just one of those... you know... days (jeez)
What can I say
My life sucks anyway
actually maybe... not
but its not my brain that's thinkin'
It's my finger holdin' the gun to my temple with one shot
I feel that my time is shrinkin'
Which also got me thinkin'...
Why am I doing this?
Did I lose it all in a game of slots?
Maybe I betted against the Harlem Globe Trotts
But I'm pretty sure
That
I
lost
the
one...
Ahhh son of a gun
How did I miss that?
It was probably all of the crack...s
In my skull after I didn't pay off that lost bet
But I don't regret
That I bet over the trotters
Cause the rebels keep it close and tighter
But for starters
Never ever bet against Harlem
Cause they'll jump up and beat you just like Michael Jordan
But now I know
I was astounded by the way she glow
With an aura like a god
Or maybe that aura was there cause I hit that blow to hard
Ehh... never mind
She was my goddess
I'm not high
I'm being modest
Honest
Scouts honor
And it was an honor to have been with her
To be her monsieur
And my mademoiselle
Due to my bad habits well...
she left
So this brings us back to now with a gun to my left side
pointing towards my left eye
sigh... BOOM!
... I missed
You can't be serious
I totally missed myself
I even failed at killing myself
I give up
Luck didn't get me
I guess my life is a one way street
I gotta keep going or I'll get rammed from behind by death
So I'll stop with this meth and relearn math
Get a job and go the right path
Don't do drugs
Make Love
Don't waste it all on blow
Make some money and let it grow
I'm gonna show that I'm not that asshole druggy
But that friendly studd... y all the time
Chances are I will get her back
I will show her that the man she knew in the past is dead
And reborn a better man instead
In the future
I promise only to me and you